Maddy Ellwanger - Pity Party

Terrified of the night time because
Of the things I might find like I'm
Avoiding my own mind and I
Can't escape these bad things this time

I'm amused and confused
By the fact that you're lying
'Cause you have no ambition
And you're not even trying
Then you look at me
And I just start crying
Because who know's what wrong with me
Maybe I'm dying

If you were me
You'd be consumed by the fright
That you'll never ever live up
To the power and the might
But that's why your life is yours
And mine is mine
You wouldn't last a day
'Cause all you do is whine

I don't know what you would do
If you were me and I were you
'Cause all these things that I'm going through
Are truly sick and my mind is doomed
I guess you could say that I'm breathing
But inside my lungs are heaving
And all of these thoughts that I have been thinking
Are more like the ocean and I'm the one sinking

I'm lost, I'm lost
And life's so confusing
To everyone else my pain is amusing
I don't know, I don't know
I don't know what I'm doing
Just leave me alone
I need a second, excuse me
I don't know what you would do
If you were me and I were you
Cause all these things that I'm going through
Are truly sick and my mind is doomed

Being stressed and depressed
It gets to your brain
It eats through your eyes
And it drives you insane
But if only you knew
All the knowledge you'll gain
You wouldn't feel bad
For being sad and in pain

I know that it sucks and that this world is sick
And it's all about judging and labeling quick
People, you'll find that they'll scream and they'll kick
At the end of the day it's a game, it's a trick

Our corpses are rotting
And we have been plotting
Our blood has been bled
And there's no way we're stopping
With the plans in our head
And the word's that have been said
No one ever listens until someone's dead
But by then it's too late and you've fucked up their fate
Oh they were so beautiful, this world's full of hate

Maybe if you would listen
You'd find that our minds are like prisons
We're trapped and no one can get in
And it's hard to make a decision

Welcome to the pity party
You can sit with me
We're wicked sick, our minds are quick
That's how we like to be

Welcome to the pity party
Ain't it great to be
Life's a bore, it's nothing more
Just you wait and see